Sometimes I forget that life isn’t about finally reaching a plateau of happiness and contentment that then just need’s a maintenance plan in place to keep it up.

I don’t like accepting that life won’t necessarily get easier, or that the hurdles that stand in my way won’t just someday dissipate or disappear. damn.

Instead I work on accepting that life will always be handing me a new challenge, a new issue, a new opportunity, and that with each one that comes my way – I am given a choice :

to grow or not to grow.

Growing is about a willingness to learn, get better… a going toward, an expanding.  I find that each time I hit my wall – weather it be of compassion, patience, joy, or love for myself or another human being that in fact… there is a secret door in that wall that then takes me in to tunnels of self-discovery yet unexplored.   When I have my button’s pushed and pushed again, i’ve started to realize that it won’t help the matter to then berate myself about the fact that i let it happen or that I got reactive, but instead to just gently acknowledge that it happened and know that there is always another opportunity to choose differently next time.

I think the key to growth is simply the “allowing” of “what is” to in fact… just “be… ” it’s in that peaceful place that we can access a freedom with the events of life as they are.  Suddenly we are “free” to stand in a place of attention as we “allow” life’s events to ebb and flow- the way that they are naturally meant to occur.

I don’t know- maybe these thoughts sound like Jack Handey  wrote them, but I’m really getting to a place inside that although i have difficulty describing- is back to that analogy about the wall with the secret door… – It’s always right there… waiting to be discovered… just feel around and push a bit and … you may just find an opening.